Put Your Mind To It, Go For It

As promised in my post yesterday, here are my current motivations for getting back to my goal weight:

  1. My health. The doctor says he wants to “guard and protect” my future fertility and losing weight is the first step do doing that.
  2. My dream. Since starting my journey on Weight Watchers many years ago I hoped to one day become a Weight Watcher leader. After reaching Lifetime status back in October of 2007, I was able to apply for the job. WW of Philadelphia only calls applicants on an as-needed basis and I finally got a call for an interview. If the interview/hiring/training works out I need to practice what I preach.
  3. My sanity (and my husband’s sanity). I am in a better mood, and am a nicer person when I feel good about my body and about my choices. I let the number on the scale dictate my disposition on any given day and getting that number under control will go a long way for my mental health. Read More…

I noted in my post on Friday about my PCOS diagnosis, the doctor explaining to me why my body has a harder time losing fat gives me a justification for being overweight. It makes me feel like I have a medical reason for the cellulite and tummy rolls. But just because I have this diagnosis doesn’t absolve me from needing to lose a few more pounds. It is the opposite, in fact. The need is even stronger; even if the result may be harder to attain.

“Losing weight is hard. Maintaining is hard. Being overweight is hard. Choose your hard.”

So that’s that. I don’t get a free pass to give up on myself just because I finally have an answer. There is no excuse that is good enough to sacrifice my health.

The fact is, regardless of how hard it is for me to lose weight, I have done it in the past. I am capable of dropping pounds. I am capable of maintaining a lower weight. I can do it. I will do it.

I am six pounds heavier than my goal weight. And now I have multiple motivators to push me to drop those (more on that tomorrow…)


Posted on: August 6, 2010

I haven’t posted anything this week because I haven’t really known what to say. I’ve been trying to figure a few things out for myself and I’m not sure I’ve wrapped my head around it yet. And, for that reason, I was at a loss.

Let me clarify…

I’ve been having some medical issues (nothing super scary, so don’t freak) and I finally got an answer on Tuesday as to what is up with my body. The diagnosis has answered a lot of long-time questions for me. But, just knowing why my body is doing what it is doing doesn’t solve the problem. Read More…

I wanted to share something I read on one a blog I read occasionally. Reading this gave me a few chills and a sense of strength going in to the weekend. I hope it will do the same for you.

From Escape from Obesity:

When I am bored, eating is easier than finding something productive to do.

When I am tired, eating is easier than forcing myself to keep working or convincing myself to take a nap.

When I am angry, eating is easier than feeling those unpleasant feelings.

When I am sad, eating is easier than crying real tears.

When I am scared, eating is easier than facing my fears or screaming into my pillow because I don’t have an answer.

When I am rejected, eating is easier than feeling the loneliness.

When I am frustrated, eating is easier than finding a solution.

Eating is easier than really living. But do you really want a life shrouded and numbed by food?

Do you really?

Is it REALLY easier? Not in the long run.

Sitting is harder than running, when you are unable to join your little ones in play.

Riding is harder than walking, when you have lost your mobility due to your weight.

Lying on the couch is harder than taking the stairs, when your children are going to bed each night without kisses.

Eating is harder than dealing with life, when you realize your days are limited and you’ve wasted them focused on food.

In ten, twenty, thirty years, where will you be if you take the easy way? Will your life be easier then?

Losing weight is hard. Being fat is hard. Maintaining is hard.

Choose your hard.

The scale has NOT been friendly lately and I only have myself to blame. Vacation, weddings, trying a new weight loss method, etc. did not treat me nicely. Or, should I say, I did not treat me nicely…

I have admitted defeat and come happily back to the one thing that I know works: Weight Watchers. But, having been a WW member for what feels like eternity, I get bored. So, I’m on a mission to try new things, attempt new recipes, and be inventive. No more same-old-same-old.

On that note, I present you with my take on two new-to-me products.

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A few weeks back I was feeling snack-y at work and was completely unprepared. Typically, I keep plenty of waist-friendly food around for occasions just like this one. But on the snack-y day in question, my cabinet-o-food was sadly empty. Fortunately, my wonderful friend and co-worker is also calorie-conscious and had something to offer me: and Atkins snack bar.

I was skeptical. I don’t believe in the Atkins diet and so I’m not prone to partake in Dr. Atkins’ products. But I was in a pinch. So, I accepted the bar and munched away.
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I am slightly embarrassed to admit, that the McKenna program is not going to be my weight loss solution. I was hopeful that his common sense rules were the answer to my food issues, but unfortunately my relationship with food cannot be reprogrammed so easily.

I think Paul McKenna is a smart guy who definitely makes some incredibly valid points. The problem is that just saying “eat when hungry; stop when full” is so much easier than doing it. If it were really so simple as listening to my body, I would have conquered this life-long struggle with weight, food, and body-image a long time ago. For me, my eating habits go much deeper than any four rules can reach. So, sadly, I have not been reprogrammed by trying Mr. McKenna’s program. In fact, I’m a few pounds heavier than I was when I started.

But, trying his approach was not a total loss. I have become much more aware of my eating speed. I’ve slowed down my eating and have started being a much more conscious eater. A few weeks ago, I was on a work trip and eating out a lot. By thinking only about tasting and enjoying the food and stopping when full, I was able to get through a week of uncontrolled food situations without doing any real damage. I think that his four rules might be a perfect go-to for vacations or work travel. When I’m on the move, and not feeling overly snack-y and when I don’t have the ability to pack or plan as much as I’d like, simply eating more slowy and really focusing on stopping when full could save me some serious food anxiety. But, unfortunately I am not controlled enough to practice it daily.

So, as I noted at the start of this post, I am a bit ashamed that I am not disciplined or strong-willed enough to just stop eating when I’m full. But leaving a few bites of something delicious behind just because I’m not hungry any more is so much more challenging than it sounds.

What now?

Clearly I know myself better than any book does. When I posted a few weeks ago that I was trying the Paul McKenna plan, I noted that “Part of me thinks that two months from now, I’ll be blogging and telling you that I’m going to go back to Weight Watchers. I wouldn’t be all that surprised.” Well, I didn’t even make it two months. I made it just about a month. So one month later, 5 pound heavier, and only a little more self-aware, I’m back to my trusty point counting. I do get lethargic with the Weight Watchers program but I know that I can live a healthy lifestyle and lose weight when I follow the program. It is the only thing that has worked for me in the long term. And I always feel best about myself when I’m on track with the double-W.

At the beginning of the month, when I was starting with the McKenna approach I also said: “…for now, I want to try to learn something about myself. I want to see if I can teach myself to be comfortable around food. If this works, it may be my escape from some serious food-anxiety… I’ll share my experiences here and be open about how I am feeling. It’s worth a shot.” I did learn something about myself and I am being open about what I’ve learned. For those reasons, I am OK with getting slightly off-track. Life is a learning process. And weight loss is a journey. I guess I just took a detour. So, while I haven’t been re-programed, I am coming back to Weight Watchers with a new attitude and feeling refreshed.

Hot Sundae

Fictional girl singing group, Hot Sundae, sang "Put your mind to it, go for it, get down and break a sweat!"