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Catch-22

Posted on: August 6, 2010

I haven’t posted anything this week because I haven’t really known what to say. I’ve been trying to figure a few things out for myself and I’m not sure I’ve wrapped my head around it yet. And, for that reason, I was at a loss.

Let me clarify…

I’ve been having some medical issues (nothing super scary, so don’t freak) and I finally got an answer on Tuesday as to what is up with my body. The diagnosis has answered a lot of long-time questions for me. But, just knowing why my body is doing what it is doing doesn’t solve the problem.

On Tuesday, I was officially diagnosed with having Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). At this stage in my life — the stage where I am totally content with my life — it doesn’t have any major implications. But, in a few years’ time, it could have me freakin’. The syndrome is a leading cause of female infertility.

I’m not in the baby-making frame of mind right now, but I know that I want to be a mother some day. And the fact that becoming a mother may be a challenge for me is incredibly upsetting.

The specialist I saw on Tuesday was a very nice guy. I  understood about 75% of what he said. When I told him I’m not looking to pop out any mini-mes over the next few years, his response was perfect: “Then we need to protect and defend your fertility until then.”

(Side Note: Is it inappropriate that I had a Bachelorette flash to Casey tattooing a shield on his wrist? I don’t want Dr. Guard and Protect if he’s like that psycho suitor.)

Anyway, guess what he tells me is the #1 thing I can do to get my body in working order? Lose weight! Guess what he tells me is the hardest thing for someone with PCOS to do? Lose weight!

From Wikipedia:

The principal features are obesity, anovulation (resulting in irregular menstruation) or amenorrhea, acne, and excessive amounts or effects of androgenic (masculinizing) hormones.

Awesome (read: sarcasm).

So, the diagnosis actually explains why it’s been so hard for me to lose weight and why I tend to gain so much faster than most people. Something about insulin resistance and hormones, etc., etc. While the side effects are clearly not something I want to deal with, I also have a small feeling of relief. It almost feels good to have an answer for why I’ve struggled for so long. But it doesn’t make it any easier.

Guess what the funniest part is/was? When the doc tells me that in order to lose weight I should be sure to exercise at least four days per week for a minimum of 20 minutes! I don’t know if I’ve made it clear on this blog or not, but I exercise almost 6 days a week for an average of 90 minutes at a time. His exercise recommendation was laughable. But I’m not laughing now. Now I am both somewhat discouraged and somewhat vindicated. But just knowing that it’s not totally my fault that I’m not an über-twig doesn’t help me get any thinner.

So… I’m still at it and will do my best. What a Catch-22!

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1 Response to "Catch-22"

I know exactly how you feel. Exactly. I highly recommend http://www.soulcysters.net for TONS of information. Sometimes it just helps to be around other women with the same problem. I know it helped me. (((hugs)))

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